Lissa

I am getting to the point where I can, maybe, breathe again. That first week is a killer. Kids, parents, and teachers all wandering around asking questions and wondering what they are supposed to be doing and where they are supposed to go and when.

Oh…let me introduce myself. Hi, I’m Lissa, Assistant Director of the J. Rogers Performing Arts Studio in Edmond, OK. Like I said, last week was a real killer mentally and emotionally. I tried to stay nutritious in food picks and I think I did fairly well.

I’ve started a 90-day challenge on the Weight Loss Challenge forum and have lots of interest there, which is gratifying. I named it the “Hip Chicks 90-day Challenge”, which I thought was kind of cool. We’re focusing on what we can do in 90 days, while accepting that RIGHT NOW, we are beautiful, desirable women. I hate the idea that we as women have be a certain size to be considered sexy. I think larger women are sexy, too! And there are a lot of guys out there who agree with me. So the challenge is mainly for health and for a little kick in the pants.

But it still sucks big-time. I am at a slight plateau. Haven’t lost any weight for three days, which is an eternity in my ADD life. I have been exercising and watching my food intake but that stubborn scale won’t move DOWN.  I am at the pathetic point of entering into my exercise journal the amount of time I spend playing the piano/organ at church. That’s when you know you are desperate.

Well, it won’t last, that I know. People have all kinds of rationalizations for not losing weight but the fact is, and it is hard to face, that when you stop putting food in your mouth and start some sort of exercise, you WILL lose weight. It may be harder for some people than it is for others, but it will happen. It has happened to me before. But I truly have never had to lose this much weight; the most I ever had to lose was maybe 30 pounds or so - a drop in the bucket compared to what I need to lose now.

I keep trying to find a way to get the Wii Fit bundle but it is so expensive…I just cannot afford it right now. Workouts will continue in the music room with my elliptical trainer while watching TV.

Think I will also incorporate a more active lifestyle:  get out and pull up weeds (my front yard gardens look a mess), make sure to keep the house clean, go to work (well, that is pretty sedentary, actually-I just sit there and either play or teach). I don’t know what else I can do, except try to be as active as I can.

And pray!

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Anybody hear about the new Wii Fit?? It sounds fantastic (well, the reviews on the step aerobics aren’t great because it moves kinda slow, but for me that’s not a drawback;  I like moving slow!). I am determined to get one when I reach my mini-goal of 200 lbs.

Speaking of which, I cannot believe that I am at 237 lbs. I have never weighed this much in my whole life. Even when I was nine months pregnant with my children, I never hit anywhere near 200 lbs…now I am going to be happy when I hit 200 lbs. Feels so depressing. But I have to remember that medication put this weight on and now that I am off the meds, the weight will come off with proper diet and exercise. My doctor assures me that the weight gain is not permanent. I am also absolutely dead-set on losing this weight.

Another thing that happened is that 2 years ago I broke my knee and had to sit in a wheelchair for 5 months. Talk about gaining weight then! That’s when I went from 220 to 250 lbs. An incredible weight gain for me.

But I am now getting things right in my life, fitness-wise. I have turned an empty bedroom into MY room. I have my piano and instruments in there (I am a musician by profession), I have my craft stuff neatly put away on shelves, and NOW I have my exercise gym in there. It looks very inviting. I have my elliptical trainer set up in front of my TV so I can watch a show while I exercise. And when I reach my mini-goal, I am going to reward myself with a Wii Fit, just to keep things interesting!

One thing I know is that you gotta love yourself, fat or thin. Self-loathing is a problem many of us have when we are seriously overweight, and it does us no good whatever. In fact, if we permit ourselves to love ourselves, we WILL lose weight because of increased self-esteem. My advice to all is, love yourself no matter what you weigh.

And that’s the end of my blog for today!

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I have lost another 2 lbs. I know it is because I have come off a certain medication that causes weight gain, but it feels fabulous to lose weight! I actually ate breakfast this morning ( a meal I usually skip, against all known advice) and have felt more energetic today. I think I will start eating a light breakfast every day. I exercised briefly on my treadmill/glider while watching the news. I have been cleaning house (how many calories is that???) and trying to get things cleaned up while I am on vacation, but I don’t want to do too much on vacation and then not enjoy myself.

Hopefully I will find a buddy pretty soon…feeling a little lonely…

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Here I go, trying to lose weight after being on meds for over 4 years that put lots of weight on me (80 pounds). I also broke my knee during this time, so I had to sit in a wheelchair for six months. This did not help my situation.

However, I feel much better about my prospects now that I have been taken off my medication by my doctor.

I’ll just keep on exercising and eating right and we’ll see what happens.